This week in squirrels…
Summary
- The reason my health, physical and mental, has been bad
- Lately, my blog posts have been all about bad energy and mood, and struggling with not feeling well. I hadn’t even noticed how much of a trend this has been
- Then I was hit by some sort of “light blindness”. It constantly looks like I have just been flashed by the brightest lights, and I am trying to see past the burn-in. It escalated to the point where I sought medical care, and that’s where we found something worse.
- This line removed from the blog post. Sorry.
- I am processing a lot and it is all happening so fast.
- Family & Friends
- Have been there for me constantly and keep me going
- Work
- Anthony called me every single day through this. That’s extremely above and beyond.
- At least I get the weekend to myself!
- Small wins, but it’s been hard to even think about what I need to do with all the feelings and the energy it takes to notify everybody and deal with family.
- Everything all of a sudden feels super big and hard, and every plan and everything I am working on is out the window.
- Journaling
- This is going to be even more important going forward, but I may pause posting entries due to the nature of everything going on.
Books
- Love Me Like You Shouldn’t
- Ah, May-December sapphic romance. A comfort food read.
- I haven’t been into Harper Bliss AS MUCH since she got into the Hollywood thing and aged up all her characters even more, but she’s still one of the greats of Sapphic romances.
Music
I am not going to dig in too much this week. I listened to a lot of different stuff for a few different reasons.
- Royal & the Serpent
- Feelings music
- URGH - Mandy, Indiana
- New Feelings music
- Monarch of Monsters - Vylet Pony
- Feelings music
- The Settle Down Kid - Daniel Renfro
- Comfort music
- Music Has the Right to Children - Boards of Canada
- Comfort Music
- Ashnikko
- both comfort and feelings 😆
- Ben Frost
- music to help me sleep in the hospital
- bbno$ - why am i like this (official music video) | YouTube
- I really feel this new jam that just dropped. I like the new direction BBNO$ is going this year. Give me the introspective indry rock BBNO$
Reads and Videos
- devenv 2.0: A Fresh Interface to Nix | devenv
- More really cool-looking nix stuff
- Many Americans hold contradictory opinions on the same policies | GelliottMorris
- I feel like this isn’t really news about how you can game polls, but the spreads are fascinating.
- She’d Never Changed Her Gender Marker. Kansas Invalidated Her License Anyway. | Assigned
- This is why last week’s news was so bad
- A Manga Publisher Secretly Rehired A Writer Convicted Of Sexual Abuse, Sparking A Long Overdue Industry Revolt | Aftermath
- Japan does not protect pedos challenge, level impossible
- Indefinite Book Club Hiatus | Whatever
- AI spam ruining more things
- LLMs can unmask pseudonymous users at scale with surprising accuracy | Ars Technica
- File this under the worst uses for AI
- A GitHub Issue Title Compromised 4,000 Developer Machines | grith
- Ans AI helping tonnes of people get hacked
- Lawsuit: Google Gemini sent man on violent missions, set suicide “countdown” | Ars Technica
- even more psychosis amplified by AI
- The Trump Administration is Testing Conversion Therapy By Medically Experimenting on Trans People in Prisons | Transtitcs
- Oh, goodie, we are back to experimenting on people in prisons
Quote of the Week
Fuck.
- Most people I messaged this week